I’m a 20 year old female who still lives at home. I have lived in the same house all of my life with both of my parents who are still happily married.
My mother has been married three times, her first marriage was with the father of my two half sisters, who I basically consider to be my full sisters because we grew up together. The second, I didn’t know about for most of my life. The third marriage was with my father.
About the second marriage: a few years ago, my half sister told me that my mother had a previous husband who committed suicide in my house. He did it because he was sexually abusing his daughter, (who also lived here with my two sisters before I was born) and she had finally told someone about it.
When I started going to puberty, I started getting very depressed for a number of reasons. My parents love me and are great, but they were severely over protective, so I was stuck at home way too much. I struggled with severe depression for about 2 years until I started taking medication. I was finally diagnosed with Dysthymia and I’m on a medication that works great for me and I no longer feel overwhelming dread. I’m not sure if it is my brain that is causing the depression, or possibly bad spirits? I’ve always felt negative energy lurking in the basement of my house which I moved into when my sisters moved out. Upstairs feels peaceful, but the basement feels awful. I talked to my friends about it, and apparently no one feels the negative effects of my basement but me.
Could it be that my mom’s ex husband is somehow haunting the place? The thing is, if he didn’t kill himself, him and my mom would probably still be married and I wouldn’t exist. It is because of his death that I am alive today. Is he haunting me specifically? I haven’t experienced anything typical of spirits, I’ve just always felt this sad presence down here.
I am not a religious person. I’m very agnostic. My parents are kind of religious, but not the church going type.
I don’t know what to do about the negative energy but I honestly can’t take it anymore. I try to stay away from home as long as possible just so I don’t have to deal with it. I still need to live here for another year or so, so I just want to cleanse my basement somehow.
I’m going to go buy some sage and burn it and let it waft around my basement. Is there anything else I should try?
Someone please help, I am clueless about this kind of stuff.
Asked by Em