I was born 3 months too early thanks too my mother having pregnancy poisoning while she was pregnant with me so I had to be removed from her belly, When I was removed from her belly I wasn’t breathing, the doctors were thinking of what to do with me until I suddenly screamed and cried and they put me into an incubator for three months. While in those months I had three holes in my lungs (not all at the same time) but thanks to the doctors I survived that too.
Now sometimes I can sense static energy in my arms, I have tried to control it but every time I try to grasp this warmth it either disappears, like its flowing out of my body through my hands or it goes to the rest of my body. Now I am wondering why am I alive?
I heard that many people who were born too early passed away when they were removed from their mothers belly and of course the hospital I was and their medical resources and doctors were exceptional (luckily) but I Always feel like there is more to it, like there is more to my life than I have discovered.
I Always felt different from the rest. I was (and still am being raised) by my mother who is a catholic and my stepfather who is a protestant. They told me that I am free to make my own choices in what I believe in.
I believe that there was indeed a higher power that created us but after it did that It left us alone to fend for ourselves, to find our own path in life. I believe in myself and I desperately want to know what my role is in life. If anyone has any idea let me know.
Asked by Allesandro