The Semi-skeptic Is Back
So, I asked a question here a while back that was kind of resolved (I Wonder If I Am Going Crazy) I’ve taken to keeping places well lit, even at night, and the mirrors covered (even at my most current residence). I felt almost normal for a little while, and that was that for several months, and now here I am again.
I’ve been staying with my grand-parents for the last couple months to take some space from my house and family, and it’s the break that brought my attention to some things.
I’ve been feeling uncomfortable again (that never really went away- not for more than a week or so at a time). That creepy, almost nauseous feeling, like there’s someone else in the house with me (even when I’m alone)? It’s not so concentrated though. It used to feel more like another person (especially back home), but here and now it’s kind of vague, and goes away when other people are around. Recently, since I’ve been at my grand-parents’, I’ve heard the faint whispering sounds again and for a second last night I thought I heard singing. I’ve also been smelling cigarette smoke, even though no one in the house has ever smoked.
This has been going on since earlier this summer- I first smelled it in my bedroom, even though I’d been living there for more than half a year and hadn’t smelled smoke like that before. It happened more around the house (just a few times, I think), and now it’s happened at my grand-parents’. I only recently began to really think about it, and figured that maybe it could just be in my head, or it was me in a not-crazy way, or maybe it was my books.
I collect old books (at least 70 years old), and I brought a few of them with me from my home, and have acquired several more since here. I was thinking maybe those are part of why the little peculiarities haven’t stopped (and seem to have followed me 2,000 miles across the country). Just the whole ‘I like weird old things, weird old things must like me’ reasoning. Especially since I may have bought one of said books around the time the smokey scent started.
But I really don’t know, so that’s why I’m asking for outside opinions (again). I guess the question’s really just ‘Why am I experiencing this, why won’t it go away, why did it follow me, and why am I suddenly starting to smell things?’
Asked by M. Warfield