Another person wondering if they’re going crazy….
So, I’ll start by saying that I’ve personally come to the conclusion that I’m a little crazy.
I have a rather vivid imagination that seems to have no ‘off’ switch, and an interest in the supernatural and paranormal (though I don’t thoroughly believe such things exist). Obviously this combination of factors would explain whatever I’m experiencing. I just want an outside opinion.
I have always been afraid of the dark. I have a serious dislike of it and do my best to avoid it. I also am rather leery of mirrors, especially when it’s dark or the room is not well-lit, and I am not fond of basements.
At my grandparent’s house, the room I sleep in has wooden paneling, and I found a set of knots in the wood that looked like a face. This perceived face felt rather threatening to me, and during my stays there I sleep with a few night lights or a lamp on, and my back to the wall with said ‘face’. It was around the time I discovered the face that I began hearing faint, unintelligible whispering sounds, with no identifiable source. That was when I first started to turn on music to drown out what I thought I was hearing.
When I was younger, I used to think there was something in our bathroom – I would stand just outside the door and look into the dark room, and I always thought I saw a shadowy, human-shaped figure crouching in the far corner.
We’ve moved out of that house, and are currently in a new one. My dislike of the dark has not gone away, and I have slept with a lamp on for a couple days-long periods of time. I would often have an uncomfortable feeling when in my bedroom (which is in the basement), and have often had the sensation that I am not alone (though not of being watched). There have been many times when I think I hear whispering, though I can never hear what is being said (honestly, it disturbs me, and I usually turn on music to drown it out). There are also times (late at night/very early in the morning) when I am the only one who is awake, and I don’t hear or see anything, but I feel like someone is awake and in the room with me. On the rare occasion, I will see something move in my peripheral vision, only to find that there’s nothing there.
I covered the windows in my room, my mum helped me take down the mirror on the wall (it is now leaned reflective-side towards a wall), and I have a dim lamp in the corner of my room furthest from my bed that I leave on at night when I’m sleeping. Since doing these things, I have become more comfortable…
We have a cat, and I understand cats and other animals to be sensitive to entities and energies of various natures; I can only recall one time though when my cat reacted to some unseen thing in a way similar to mine- I had taken the cat to my room for the night, and he was sitting at the foot of my bed, when he looked up towards the closed door. I naturally followed his gaze, but didn’t see anything. I do recall having the disquieting sensation that something was on the other side of the door though.
I don’t know if I’m actually crazy, or if these weird experiences are actually happening outside my head, or what. The ‘logical’ part of my brain insists that there’s nothing there to be threatened by or afraid of, but the imaginative side of me insists otherwise (I guess I’m a bit confused). Thoughts, opinions?
Asked by M. Warfield